sometimes i just feel like im gonna lose him, no matter what i say or no matter what i do wont keep him from leaving me. is it because i feel like im not good enough for him, is it the constant feeling of him not listening to a word i say, is it because maybe the feeling of losing him is becoming a reality? i dont know. and its killing me. when he says that i only get one chance and thats it he wont chase after me, it makes me feel like what we have means nothing, its like him basically saying what we have isnt worth fighting for. i dont know what to think. maybe this is all me, all what im feeling inside, is because im messing up, maybe im honestly not good enough for him, i dont have the perfect face, or the longest legs, or the biggest boobs, or the perfect skin, and i feel like thats what he wants. he jokes about that stuff but inside it hurts it really does, especially when he jokes about other girls, like he has to go see his other girlfriends, and yeah its funny once or twice, but the constant? i never do that. i dont know. i wish i knew how to fix this feeling, all i know right now is that im completely and utterly in love with him but he doesnt feel the same.